I was asked by the BBC radio Scotland if I would speak about my Terminal illness. I pondered over this for a few days then said ok. Yesterday I did the piece from home. I felt better talking about it. I will be honest it’s been hard. Coping is not easy and it’s strange how we all deal with it. Afterwards I felt better it was strange and difficult to accept.
We spoke about coming to terms with a terminal illness how emotional that was. Telling those you love is the most difficult. How I would cry a lot at first and still do. It was hard to accept help at first watching the my body get weaker and weaker. Now I am glad of help in anyway from bringing wood in and now I cannot drive getting into town or shopping. I am surrounded by so many helpers from Dianne, Babs Kalie , Yvette and the girls. Most afternoons I am very tired and need to relax. I try just to have one visitor a day anymore wears me out. This is hard for others to accept. My concentration is poor and my shakes stopping me typing at times. I cannot believe the friends support I have and every week I have letters or messages. Without them I doubt I could cope.
Leaving those you love will not be easy and is always in my mind to me this is the hardest thing to accept.
I managed a walk yesterday with no wind it was warm and great to be out in the best day of the summer so far.i had two short walks that helped. The sun warming your body is a great healer.
The radio show will be on next week I will update when I hear. The time and date.
All the best Scotland for tonight and to Celtman in Torridon that’s on this weekend, Cheer me up please.
Old mans thoughts and tales. 
Keep positive Heavy. I was planning to visit, well we only live close by. Sadly, I had a bloodclot, followed by a bypass to save my foot and lower leg. Just had two major muscles removed as they had died due to a lack of oxygen. Life changes in an instant, so keep on fighting Heavy, you need me to put the world to rights with you.
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Whilst we all know that death is inevitable it’s not easy when it’s so protracted Heavy -but it has given you the chance to say your goodbyes and to realise just how much you are loved, respected, admired and appreciated.
Thinking of you
Brian
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You’ve summed up my thoughts exactly Brian.
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I don’t really know you, Heavy – at least only through this blog. But that’s been enough to give me a ton of respect for you and everything you have done. Of course – you’ve probably not written about everything!! 🙂 Well, nobody should..
Talking about facing the end of life in a radio interview would be enough drop most people, so: “Cheer me up please.” I think you’re doing absolutely as well as anyone I know could do under the circumstances, Heavy.
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You are showing great courage and fortitude Heavy and inspiring the rest of us to keep going and experience the Great Outdoors as you do. As I’m getting more confident with my new knee I’m getting back out onto the Hill, the Bike and shortly back on my Kayak. I’m NOT letting mere heart attacks with resulting scares and problems stop me. Oh did I not mention my caving? doing that again, not the hardest ones but good enough ones for 65 years young. Thanks for the inspiration Heavy.
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good on you
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As a crabbit old git who has fond memories of you & your team from long long ago I love you man as a great kind caring person.
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