Fighting the Demons.

The weather has been awful yet I managed a few days where the sun came out I got out for a walk. By how I needed it helps so much for me with my mental health. This is so important to me, I can’t walk far but it’s invigorating. To me the greatest pill is getting out in the fresh air.

Trying to be “positive” it’s easy to say harder to do though. How do you do this. This is not easy you get dark days but a message can help and take you to a happier place.

I find writing helps it makes me think of what is happening. I don’t do it for sympathy but it saves me telling folk where I am at. My writing is full of mistakes due to my hands so please forgive me. The journey can look bleak at times my concentration is poor as is my memory.

Yet the friends help so much and keep me straight. I am learning to accept help that was a hard part for me. Being so independent that made it harder.

So I cannot imagine what is in store for me but I am treating each day as it comes. I have made so many pals over the years and helped a few. They say you get back what you put in. I am getting it every day. The memories are great and this weekend I got a message about climbing on Suilvan a great mount. ai n in the far North West.

Suilven is in a remote area in the west of Sutherland, it rises from a wilderness landscape of moorland, bogs and lochans known as Inverpolly National Nature Reserve. Suilven forms a steep-sided ridge some two kilometres (1+1⁄4 mi) in length. The highest point, Caisteal Liath (Grey Castle)

lies at the northwest end of this ridge. There are two other summits: Meall Meadhonach (“Middle Round Hill”) at the central point of the ridge is 723 metres (2,372 ft) high, whilst Meall Beag (“Little Round Hill”) lies at the southeastern end.

I was reminded of a day where we had planned a route on the big Western Buttress. It was a long walk in and Joe had dropped one of the ropes. Joe went back to find it and my friend and my dog Teallach had a sleep, poor Joe never found it. So in the end we did the route on one rope. Teallach made his own way up to the summit ridge. Great days.

Then it’s back to reality: I got a delivery of coal and wood dropped of in the lane no notice that they were there. Sadly the coal was in 60 kg sacks way out of me lifting them. It was late when an neighbour told they were there. I tried to decanted some of the coal but had no strength. That is hard to accept.

It’s something you have to get used to a failing body and it will get worse. Any way help is always there and Kalie and Islay visited me that cheered me up. I have Flo for a few days and that good. By mid-afternoon I am very tired sadly I am best in morning

So that’s my latest update sorry for all the mistakes etc.